Happy regular mother's day.
I should be 27.5 weeks pregnant today and looking forward to my upcoming baby showers. I probably wouldn't feel like a mom yet, but I would celebrate anyway.
I know I was sounding all proud and confident in my last post, but I really don't feel like a mom. I know I am one, but it's hard to feel like one when you don't have any children to take care of. I feel alone.. which is crazy because there are millions of women out there who have gone through the same thing I have.. and I even know several people (who have slowly been coming out of the woodwork) who have had miscarriages... so how can I feel alone? I guess I feel like I'm stuck in this sad/angry/depressing moment, while life goes on for everyone else around me. I can't move forward with my life the way I want to right now (aka get pregnant again) so I'm just hanging back, waiting for time to pass.
anyway... I hope this day doesn't suck for you all.
One good thing has come of today...I have reached a place where I feel comfortable saying that the ban has been lifted, and it is now once again open season to malign the good name of Sue.
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